I was falling into the farthest recesses of an immense emptiness and aloneness
– the dimension of grief.
In my chosen seclusion from the world, I chose music to help soothe my aching soul.
It allowed me to feel in every breath my own death
the end of my life as I knew it
and everything I thought and felt about it.
I was on my knees, powerless and impotent.
The end is not negotiable.